pain & grief

hi everyone, i have a new layout…
i am a bit nervous about this one and the story, because… nobody else is talking about it! It´s not easy for me to do so, but it is also kind of a therapy for me!
it happened and i can´t change it…

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paingrief3

i had a miscarriage back in june… the fact that we got pregnant was a real surprise, also shocked us but in a postivie way… i wanted another baby for so long, but because of some serious hormonal problems it was not possible. i should have taken medication and i have done that a few times, and it was a real nightmare – the hope to get two lines each and every month, I did not want to go through this again and so we decided against another child. i had to fight with the situation, i was sad – very sad!

and then i started to feel sick all day long… i was tired and OH SO sick!
i´ve decided to make a test but i was pretty sure about the result…
my heart was so full of happiness, i cried tears of joy!!
all ended in the first week of june, the worst day was a friday (6/9/17) – i was at home alone and i had to call the ambulance because of the pain! They took me off and directly into the hospital and the operation room for a emergency surgery… worst day ever!
i have gone through this three times, but it is not getting easier… nope! this time was the worst and hardest one!! still dealing with it!

so, that´s it… my worst story from 2017!
thanks for stopping

xo

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